So I was reading over some music that I will be performing once I get better from the surgery, and even though I have heard these songs a thousand times, I hear them as if I have heard them for the first time. It takes me back to the moment that I first heard it. I feel what I felt the first time I heard it. And its that same hunger and taste for my Lord. I get this huge rush in hearing how amazing our God is. And it's not just hearing it, but hearing others share it as well. My love for God is so strong that I dont even know what I would fill my heart with if I had not accepted him into it. It truly is undescribable, you really cant put how you feel into words. How amazing is it to know that he knows each and everyone of us by name. Our deepest darkest secrets are nothing to him, yet we are everything to him. I cant even fathem the thought of how much he hurts for us each and everyday. He has seen the depths of our hearts and yet we fail to see his. Sometimes the onlytime that we cry for him is when we "need" him, not knowing that we "need" him everyday. Im so happy to say that I WANT him and am proud to say that I do need him. I need him in the highest and lowest points in my life. The times when I fall to my knees are when I am so thankful. I am awestruck of everything that he has done for me and everyone around me. If you know me, then you know that I take nothing for granted and that even in the worst of times I am as strong as I could be. But it is because the strength that our Lord has given to me. I could seriously go on and on but like I said, I cant put it into words. But that is why he can read my heart.
