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Battles
Posted On 12/20/2006 00:46:42
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Battles
I have won the Battles But Lost the war I don't want to live anymore  I can't go on I have suffered for to long To much Depression and pain Its hard to stay Sane I don't want to live So my life I give Its time for me to go I won't be missed I know Cause you don't care and Life isn't Fair By:Jess
I'm swimming all alone in a pool of darkness and I feel like darkness is slowly pulling me under I yell for help but no one is there to hear it I begin to see the water at eye level and I kick and flail fighting to stay above the darkness But the darkness won't let go of its hold on me and I slowly begin to give in to the feeling that lies below the water line the waters starts to fill my lungs the lungs that once held so much life yet now they allow the murky water to replace that I know that this path doesn't lead to happiness But why doesn't someone grab my hand pull me from darkness's grasp? because no one knows I stand at the boundary the boundary between light and dark so I give in to the thing that holds me All of the strength and all of the courage that I once held in my heart can't save me from the water So I slowly slip below the world of conscientiousness undetected by the occupants of that world I don't want to fight anymore I've given into darkness
 Am I Alone?I get a funny feeling, it comes from deep inside. I get all mad and angry, wanting to go and hide.
My doctor calls it depression, my dad says it's just me. But the thoughts and feelings, no one will ever be able to see.
Some say I'm psycho, some say I'm just weird. It's like I'm a different person, and the old me just disappeared.
I get really edgy, I want to commit suicide real bad. Then I get a headache, followed by feeling sad.
I wish I could get help, I wish it would go away. Maybe if I keep praying real hard, it will some day. 
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