as i sit here tonight, uncertain of what tomorrow will bring, i hope in this that, GOD will never leave me nor forsake me, its like with all these other people, i have to put up a brave front, so that they may be comforted, and i extend the love that i have to them and encourage them, and i am feeling like i am running out of steam.
i know that GOD is always there to build me up, and its because of HIM that i am even able to stand today, but its in times like these, facing adversity alone, that i feel defeated, as if all of what i have done has been for nought.
i just wish i had someone to talk to, majority of the time i spend alone, and i dont mind that sacrifice, but it sure would be nice to just have someone here.
not someone who needs my help, or expects something of me, but just someone here for me.
i am sure that this is just a phase or a test, and i will see it through til the end, but the stillness that used to give me peace is now so loud that it scares me.
i know that GOD is able and i will make it through this, but for now, its sad, lonley and still.
