July 8, 2008. Tuesday

It’s Tuesday, yay.

I’m having fun, watching TV and relaxing. It was a little hot to me today, but not much, I can tell I’m worn out when I haven’t done much today.

Tomorrow I go to bible study early in the morning, then to the bakery and VR in the afternoon, and to Mosaic Church for worship practice afterwards. I get my tires changed on my chair, finally, on Thursday. It’s been a month basically. Now I’ll be able to drive without worn-out wheels.

Sunday was great. I ran the slides for Springwater Church, it turned out good. The music I mostly know, maybe minor errors in not knowing all the lyrics, but I follow along really good. I went to the bakery after church, after eating something at the churches potluck meal and getting on my bus quickly, then eventually went to Mosaic Church. I greet there, it’s fun/I enjoy serving there.

Yesterday I hung out at the bakery, then went to Mosaic Church to volunteer in the office for a few hours, then I went home.

Today I was at the bakery as usual, played on my computer for a long time, then I visited my brother/went home.

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        July 8, 2008. Tuesday

        Being a Counselor

I’ve been thinking about my career goal more, and it gets brighter as I go through school. I’m no expert in counseling, but I have experience from helping others out some.

I want to be a counselor for those with disabilities/challenges, but I’m leaving it open to where I’m needed more. I need to go through more school to complete my goal and move on to the next step.

I know this much about what’s needed to be a counselor. Taking psychology classes, math to a high level that I hope I can survive/pass, complete the writing classes, and other steps to finish the process. I’m starting the process at half time per school term, but it’s progress. I need to take writing 115 and math, hopefully I can avoid statistics or anything beyond what I can pass, math in some areas is my weakness-I didn’t do well with word problems/state assessments in high school and in my math 20 in winter 2008. I took psychology 201a last term to start my psychology classes.

I’m not sure if foreign languages are required, but I decided to take Spanish starting fall 2008. I can read Spanish but not translate it, and I know enough to have a 30 second conversation, with the basics learned from elementary school.

Whatever it takes, I’ll go for my career goal. Hopefully I can comprehend/remember what I learn and gain from it more than I think can be gained. As I continue with my goal, I look forward to it. With experience in helping others out, I know I can qualify to be a counselor, I just need to set my mind to it/not give up no matter how hard it gets. I learn more about myself in this process too. Even with a disability, I can achieve goals like these, through time and patience. Those with disabilities are good witnesses to challenges/needs, and they can be qualified to succeed in being a counselor if they stay positive and keep moving forward.

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             July 7, 2008. Monday

Bridge of ‘Jesus Paid It All’-

Oh praise the one

Who paid my debt

And raised this life

Up from the dead

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        July 4, 2008. Friday

Happy Fourth of July.

I normally don’t like watching food shows, but I like ‘A Lyon in the Kitchen.’ Nathan Lyon is good at what he does, he’s more thorough in explanations and it’s good visual learning; good for me anyway. I may not remember the recipes he does, but I know I can find it on the discovery health website. I’m watching a half hour show right now related to mostly avocado food. I saw the smallest grown avocado and avocado ice cream. He made Chocolate Avocado Shake, Avocado Butter, and Avocado Salad with Toasted Nuts. It had other food in the show, but these stuck out more.

I had fun today, I celebrated two things. Independence Day and my Grandpa’s birthday, I dedicate the fireworks to him in heaven every year. I’m not setting fireworks tonight, but I’m hearing them outside my bedroom window, I’m sure my cat is freaked out by it because of the noise/stuff. when it’s over she’ll be fine. I hung out with my brother today too, I played two games of checkers with him, he won big time on the first game and I won big time the second game; I also ate lunch with him which was really good-better than normal that’s served where he lives.

Last Saturday there were two guests from Nicaragua speaking-pastors, I enjoyed them coming and talking about the area that the people live in, it’s a dump for garbage/more. I got to talk to them more, with someone from church translating for me, and it was good. I asked if there were any disabled people there, they said no. But they saw a guy online, Nick Vujicic-which I knew about-and was inspired by his abilities and serving. They told me they never saw anybody with his condition, which is what I have too, and said they were glad they met me. They basically felt encouraged by how I do things despite my limitations, and that I serve in the kingdom. This encourages me, it helps me know that I can achieve beyond my limitations and to go forward in what I’m called. I sent them a couple pictures of me, and the translator at church sent a couple of us 3 together

Tomorrow I’m going to OMSI for a few hours, to volunteer in Life Science Lab with the live animals or Greet, but the animals I go more often; it’s my favorite area anyway. I go to Trinity Project afterwards for church. It won’t be a normal service, it’s worship poetry night with a little bit of sermon stuff, it’ll be fun.

On Sunday I’ll be helping at Springwater Church for my first week, I’m running the song and sermon slides for them. The best part of doing Springwater is that I can be there ay 9am for worship practice instead of 7am, no getting up before 5am to arrive at 7am, it’s getting up after 6am and leaving after 8am; yay. I’m excited, the worship leader I know is leading this week, so it’ll be an easier transition for me at the church as my first Sunday serving. I’ve been going to Springwater since may this year, so I’m able to figure out how the services will go most of the time. I’m going to the bakery I go to almost everyday, then to Mosaic Church in the evening, with a BBQ all this month after third-evening-service on Sunday’s.

Hmmmmmmmmm, I’m bored, I better play games or do something before I bore myself to sleep. I’m ready to fly, later gator.

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        July 2, 2008. Wednesday

It’s Wednesday, cool.

I had a good week, I’m staying busy as usual.

The Sunday services on June 22 went good, I kept up with the songs and sermon slides pretty good. It’s always trial and error sometimes, but once the service is set/done the first two services, the third service is easier to manage and follow. The rest of the 2 weeks I hung out with friends, went to the Wednesday morning bible studies, and enjoying the nice weather.

On Sunday, 3 days ago, I went to Springwater Church, they had a Noah’s Arch theme outside, outdoor music and real farm animals. I had fun, despite being half able to talk when I got to third service at Mosaic Church, I can say I enjoyed the music and the animals.

Today I played on my laptop, Facebook games. Then, I went to worship practice at mosaic. I’m not on the schedule to do slides, but I practiced setting up half of the service stuff, to get better and quicker at it. I did pretty good, it looks a little different on my computer than the churches computer, but it’s good effort/practice for me. After practice the team and I went to Laurelwood I think it’s called, it’s a restaurant across the street from the church. I got clam something soup and iced tea. I’m no drinker, but once in a while I’ll have a few sips or a sample of something; I don’t tolerate the taste of alcohol well. Tonight I had a small sample of a drink with honey in it, since I don’t drink I rarely remember what I taste, this was ok but still gross to me; it doesn’t hurt to have a few sips off/on. I guess I’m one of the few that doesn’t desire alcohol/beer, but I desire coffee a lot, sometimes pop too. I know why I don’t desire drinking, besides the taste of it, is my health. After all I’ve been through as a child and the surgeries I’ve had to keep me healthy/alive, I don’t want to become unhealthy, especially if I live with an ostomy/colostomy-I call it ostomy based on my research but it doesn’t matter because ostomy is in the name of my health condition either way-for the rest of my life to stay healthy inside.

I better go, time to play games before I go to sleep. I’m not sure what I’m doing tomorrow, but I’ll play it by ear like I normally do. I know I’ll be playing with this Sunday’s mosaic slides to practice more, and play games as usual. Maybe do a little work for trinity project if it’s needed. I’m ready to fly and enjoy my night, later gator.

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         June 26, 2008. Thursday

It’s Thursday, yay. I’m having fun, I’m playing games on my computer.

I have good news, I know it might change but it’s solid right now. I’m working for my Trinity Project Church for 20 buck’s/month, doing administrative assistant tasks, I’ve already done 2.5 hours on their calendar events before the decision was made. I can work from home too, most of it is home stuff anyway. I’m glad, it’ll help me try to pay off my new computer faster and get to my debt sooner-not never. I start officially this Saturday, I’m still volunteering in some of the taske due to the church having limited income, but it’s worth it.

Not much else is going on. My room looks better, I got it cleaned with much more space on the floor.

I think the sun is out for good, but I’m still having minor doubts it’ll stay sunny/nice. I’m enjoying it while it lasts.

I better go, time to play more games and just have fun. Later gator.

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             June 24, 2008. Tuesday

                      Mine

    This year is different, somehow the weather throws a lot of things/us off guard, and we don’t always like it. I’ve noticed it for sure, changes in me that were good/bad, but hopefully now it’ll be/stay normal; to be myself too.

    The sun is out, it’s wonderful. I may be indoors most of the time, but I’m enjoying the nice weather, it’s very helpful. Hopefully it’ll be warmer and not cold at night, so I can actually wake up without struggling to get up/falling back to sleep.

    I’ve been seeing who I’ve been this past 2 seasons-winter in spring too-I don’t like who I’ve been. I don’t know what went wrong with me, but I feel like I’m normal now, weather changes like this I think really effects how I act and handle things. I admit and repent my wrong actions, words-not bad words, and how I’ve been caring for myself in certain areas. I say I’m sorry to HIM, and I ask for forgiveness in what I’ve been/have done lately.

    I know all of us go through times in certain kinds of weather, seasons, or whatever the reason is, but if we keep following in HIS footsteps we’ll be better followers/servants to HIM. School may drive us nuts, family may be typical family/individual challenges, problems in job success, the disasters the past few months, and much more that makes us not be who we are inside. My advice, for me also, is to learn to listen to HIM more than ever and to let things that we can’t control out of our hands/put these in HIS hands. I’m not afraid to admit that I haven’t been myself fully, but I know I’m more myself now since I see how HE’s been in my life fully still/guiding me to good results in the end through everything, including thoughts that would normally come out and hasn’t-a wall is keeping the unneeded stuff back behind a super thick bad proof wall in my head.

                      Prayer

    LORD, you know who we are-inside/out, and how our world is right now. We thank you for creating beautiful things, animals, us, all forms of life, and followers of you. I pray that through our troubled time, we learn to walk with you more/more, and that we don’t hesitate to give you our burdens/hurts. Wherever we are in life, guide us to where you call us to go, and to repent/let go of what we do to harm ourselves/others. Show us your guiding light, and help us to be better people in this world. Show us how to be better wives/husbands-loyal/loving/honest/devoted to each other/more, for family relationships to be good/loving/honest, for individuals to find out who they are inside and bring the best out. There’s no need to hide who we are, good or bad, but there are ways to improve who we can be if we set our minds to it. I pray for everybody else in need, in every situation needed, for healing/guidance/more. Through praise, worship, messages/teachings, bible reading, gatherings/groups, and much more, I pray that your spirit flows in us and renews us as new living beings/children in your presence; including those who don’t know you yet. I pray this and so much more in your great/mighty name AMEN.

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             June 17, 2008. Tuesday

    Today was/is still good.

I couldn’t get my chair tires changed today, but once my insurance authorizes it it’ll be done. I got my seat rest fixed/my headrest tightened though, this was more important than my four tires due to how my driving has been lately.

I played on my new computer more today, I get used to how it works everyday, and how to connect to different wireless connections; practice makes perfect knowing that I haven’t had a wireless computer before.

I have a great highlight of my day today, on the public bus, it shows how much skills I have for accepting others/being a counselor someday; for those with challenges/disabilities. You would think the lady I saw is crazy, but she’s not, she just needs to be accepted for who she is. She has an adult son she said, and she carries around a small blue bear as her child, wrapped in a mini coat/a blanket. I can relate to this in some way, I may not be in her mental/security state, but I had an imagination of stuffed animals being real, but I can still enjoy these animals for comfort more than fun. The interesting thing was that she felt safe with it, talking to it/stuff like a real child, but I played along with her when we talked knowing that someone like me cares enough to be supportive. I feel good about it, I don’t see any harm in having an animal as a child to nurture/care for, I believe it helps her to feel part of the world and I fully understand that; it keeps her mind going by feeling like a mom to the bear. This helped me to see more of why the challenged/disabled need support from others, and she’s one of the few people I run in to that opens my eyes to how open my heart is for others/to be a counselor.

Tomorrow night is Mosaic’s worship practice, I need to be there for Sunday’s 3 services, so I know what’s needed to be mostly prepared. It’s a before 5am wake up to be there by 7am, but it’s worth it.

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             June 16, 2008. Monday

                      Prayer

    LORD, you provide us with more than we can imagine, thank you. I pray that as we follow you more, and deeper every day, that you show us your light and love in us. wherever we are in life, and no matter how many natural disasters there are right now, I pray that you help/guide us where we’re supposed to be. Show us how to live in your presence as we grow and learn. Thank you FATHER, I ask this/more in your great name, AMEN.

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