I sit here tonight,bumbled by God's love. I have fallen in love with Him all over again.
I prayed for help a couple of weeks ago stating that I was facing a giant and needed the strength of David. Well, God gave me that strength and I stepped up to the plate and did as He was requiring me to do.
Unforgiveness is a horrible thing. I had forgiven, but what I was doing was cutting off the little roots that grow from the main root. As fast as they would crop up, I'd cut them off, but the deep root of unforgiveness was still there. The unforgiveness turned into fear...fear of the person who hurt me so deeply. I feared any type of confrontation whatsotever. I refused to go around this person for in my mind, he would just hurt me again. I am still amazed at how that happened.
Last Sunday, I took the step out in faith in God, after quite a struggle with Him I must admit, and I faced the giant for the first time in about 6 months. I will tell you, I was very nervous, but God gave me the strength to do it. When church was over, I walked up to this person, hugged him, kissed his cheek and asked him how he was doing. When I left the church that night, I was changed...freed from the bondage that had held me for so many months. No longer did I have that bitter root inside of me.
Today in church, God did something that He had promised me. Several weeks ago, I had a vision. I was standing in the center of a light which spread 6 feet in all directions around me. In the center with me was Jesus with His arm around my shoulder. I simply took that to mean that He was with me. Two weeks later, I went up for prayer and the women gathered around me. One lady knelt to my left and she leaned over to my ear and she said, "God wants you to know He loves you and the darkness that is surrounding you? He will shatter that darkness and when He does, the light will be so brilliant you will be amazed." I sat up and looked at her because I didn't know this woman so I knew she didn't know about the vision that I'd had.
Well, God has shattered the darkness and the light is brilliant just as He said, and I am humbled beyond words.
I don't know who all read my plea, but if anyone who reads this did and prayed for me, I thank you from the bottom of my heart. God loves you and so do I.
