this is the only update that i have seen on her page
MY MILA WHO LOVES HER MOMMA!!
Current mood: LOVED BY AN ANGEL
Mila today-
Mila was in the best mood ever! She was laughing and smiles for all from the moment she woke up. It is so amazing her strength. I could not imagine what she feels. I hate that I can not take it away. I give her a bath in the evening. The whole process takes about an hour. I have to do everything very slow, to not hurt her in any way. At the end of her bath out favorite thing is to pick a lotion. It always is Mommy's!! "Peeeeeaaaasssseee....she says!" Of course. Today we bought her a new pillow. It is a wedge pillow. Hospice has told me alot of what to look for in her final days. I don't know how I can do this. I told them I will be strong and stay calm to take in every minute and remember it. They said, "if you want to sit and cry and loose it....do" I cant though. Not for my Angel. I will talk to her, and walk her through this. She will have Angels above her taking her little spirit from my tight grip, but I will let her go with the knowledge that this is not the end. She will be ok.
Mila picked out her outfit tonight. Yellow PJ's. The ones Mommy got her!! (yeah) We watched The Little Mermaid. I think me singing the whole entire movie....made her laugh more then me! She kept saying "no like it" when it was scary, so I would FF those parts. Mila, loved the FF button! Then it was...."I tired...TV off!" So, I turned off the TV, and kneeled down beside her, and said lets have a prayer.
She folded her precious little arms and said..."Heavenly Father"
I finished the prayer. I do not know what to say. I just pray for us, to be happy and have lots of fun days to be together. I prayed for her to feel no pain, and to sleep with good dreams and wake up with a happy heart. I feel all of your prayers. I love all of them.
I kissed her warm cheek....oh her warm cheek. To think the feeling of that warmth is so limited makes me just hold onto the feeling deep in my heart and lock it away. I looked at her and said "I love you" and she said "wuv you much" Then I said...."I love you alllllll the way to the moooon" pointing up to the ceiling....and she pointed at her perfect healthy beautiful pure heart and said...."and back"
Peace be with you all on this Holiday season. I hope you share it with the ones you love. I am able to be with Mila on what may be her very last Thanksgiving. I will charish this moment.....and it to will sink deep into my soul.
All my love......Andi
All my WUV....Mila
