Well I was born Sept 28 in Houston ,TX in the AM(that must be why I don't like morning's ha! ha)It's just me and My older brother Michael.We would have had an older sister but she passed away when she was 5(retina blastema"CANCER")We had loving parents who where backsliders. They just went the wrong way. My mother became an alcoholic and drug addicts. My father followed along. We didn't have it ruff we just seen to much. It's crazy having an alcoholic mother. We moved around a lot they where always trying to get away from the trouble but trouble follows you until you're ready to change. Well my aunt lived in a town called Freeport (by the Gulf) She told my mother to come down and live with her and her family so we packed up once again and moved. She thought she was getting away from all the bad but found themself in worsen situations .Well my aunt started to invite her to church and she kept saying no but finally she couldn't ignore God anymore and this church was having a tent revival and she went .There she FOUND Jesus and asked him into her heart and She was FORGIVEN of all her sins at that VERY moment. THANK GOD. That was 12 years ago. I started to go to church with her and as a family. We also accepted Christ in our hearts.
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I did good for a couple of years and then that's when I started to be influenced by my surroundings and began doing my own thing behind my parents backs. I was in church and oh so miserable I had a anger problem and would just fly off punching walls, breaking things. I was so unhappy wanting to fill an empty void. I started to find Love in all the wrong places. Searching and searching for someone to love me and all along had someone that loved me it was Christ. Well I kept going on life the way I wanted to (Going to church jumping and shouting and still coming home the same way) I lived like that til I was I was about 17 .I met my husband when I was 16 we got married on Oct 21.I wasn't sure if he was the right one for me and one day I was out looking for his house and I asked God give me a sign let me know I am doing the right thing. He did exactly that I couldn't find his house so I told my mom pull over and ask this guy running along side the road and when the man got closer it was my soon to be husband.(crazy huh ha-ha! .I had just turned 17 on Sept 28. As soon as I got married I was Outta there. So my husband was a drinker not a heavy one. He had his own run ins with life (drinking, drugs, women, police, you name it) So this was the chance to live life the way I wanted to. So he started partying like every weekend. It was ok for a year but I was so unhappy and not finding peace anywhere. So in Feb 2001 we split. That was my lowest point in my life .I had being going through so much .My friends at the time told me things would fill better with pills. So I would take one every now and but when we spilt I had to take one to get up in the morning and one at lunch , then the ones to make me fill better during the day and then to go to sleep at night. The on top of all that there was the pot that got me at a happy level (just for a little) .I couldn't deal with all the emotions I was filling .I was in denial not knowing where all the filling where coming from .I began to cut. Yes I'm a cutter not something I'm proud of but it's my testimony ,it's what I came out of. Well we where split up for about a month or two. We got back together but things where still so very weird for us. We keep going on unhappy and unsatisfied . Well I had quiet everything then we found our self back in it all over again .Drinking and partying. We decided it would be good to get away from it all. We moved to Humble, Tx (about an hour1/2) my job transferred me there .So two days after moving over there I found out I was pregnant (which I really was mad because I thought I wanted to party more but God had another plan for me) When me and my husband got married we where trying to have a baby but it never happened(Sometime we want things to happen on our time and that's not the way we want them to happen but it's not what we want it's what he wants) So I made a promise to God I told him when he gave me my baby I would go back to church. So I was pregnant and in a new town didn't know anyone in a bigger city. I would stay the weekend in Lake Jackson so I could go to church(I had to keep my promise) We moved back over here after 6 months of living in humble/Spring . I told God I was going to do it real this time. No games no faking just me unedited . And I'm going to keep that promise and I WILL NEVER go back to that life. I will never look back.
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I praise God for saving me and keeping me this long and for always keeping me save even when I didn't keep myself safe.God gave me the most awsome sonand husdand they are perfect in evey way and so awsome and they keep me smiling eveyday. In due season if you faint not. God always comes on time,even when it may seem like he's not there he carries us through. It is when God takes u throught the fire to refine us taking out on the impurities and when we come out we will shine like Gold.If I can tell anyone anything is TRUST in God keep your eyes on him. Keep your faith in God because people will always let you down. We are not perfect but he is. We just strife everyday to be more like him. Don't ever turn your back on God and when you start to think about it remember how far he has brought you. Don't let church be a routine and something you do because your doing it for someone else.If you don't know Jesus ,get to know him.GEt into a church that will preach you the truth and lead you to God.Don't be afraid of God he loves you and wnats you in his family. Take care and God Bless. I hope I have helped someone out.I have now been saved for about 3 years now.Thank you Jesus for the blood you shed on Calvary for our sins.
