Again I asked the Lord for His purpose in all that is happening to us. It wasn't as if I hadn't heard Him the first time, or the second time, or....But I needed the reassurance....again.

And His answer? He did not cause our sickness, but He is allowing this to show His glory.

It is hard to see His glory when vertigo keeps you from doing the things you should be doing...like housework. Yes, I know my profile says I hate housework. I think after God heals me, my outlook on housework will be drastically different. I will be thanking God for being able to wash dishes and scrub floors,etc. It is also hard to see His glory when you are trying to take care of your husband who has just had his first chemo treatment and the two of you are both having trouble walking for long periods of time.

In our weakness, He is strong. His strength is made perfect in our weakness.

How? We need to rely on God for everything. He has provided us with wonderful Christian friends who help us in any way they can. My kids are becoming incredibly strong throughout all of this. They have been such a big help, and 3 out of 4 are still at home.

How? We are learning what is important and what is not. God is first! Family and friendships are cherished and are second. Prayer has taken its' rightful place as the cornerstone of all that occurs for the kingdom of God, instead of prayer during devotions and the doing of the kingdom as priority.

How? How is it that I have put my trust in what I can do for God rather than who He is?

So, He is changing me, conforming me more to His image. And in this He gets all the glory. We know that God will raise us up once again and that He will use all of it to show His glory.

1 I waited patiently for the LORD;
he turned to me and heard my cry.

2 He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock
and gave me a firm place to stand.

3 He put a new song in my mouth,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear
and put their trust in the LORD.

Psalm 40:1-3