Ok so I need to just make a random spill on my life that none of you know anything about so those of you reading this probably won't be remotely interested.. ok so anna is like supposed to be my best friend or whatever but we just dont click and its so not my fault and i know she has problems but i guess i just suck or something cause she never tells me anything and im always in the dark and i know how brian felt cause it really sucks and its not even one of those things thats not my business cause shes supposed to be my freaken best friend and right now i feel like i really dont have any friends and no one likes me and it really can be depressing so i just try not to think that i never talk to anyone except random people online and people think im annoying or whatever the heck they think it i try to laugh it off cause its to sad to really take seriously and i know it probably doesnt sound like much but it gets to me..i dont have anyone i really dont and the whole deal with lance literally just like not likin me for no reason just makes me sad i mean like he reallly liked me for a while and then he is like avoiding talkin to me and callin me stuff and i dont know what i did and why im so appalling that he cant even try to be friends with me so then i start thinkin hes just a big jerk and anna talks about how great he is and where she'd be without him and all this crap and im like ok so i guess im just a nobody and lance took my place and everyone hates georgia and i dont know why that either so i guess we're kinda together on that i really hope she doesnt talk about me and now im thinkin anna and lance talk so bad about georgia behind her back what if they do that to me to? but georgia has a boyfriend and all her mormon friends so she's not bad off and its just so stressing but if i try to tell anyone this (like id want to) theyd be like well listen to my problems blah blah blah and im sick of being sympathetic towards ppl and i know that sounds awful but really it just SUCKS and im always in trouble with my parents and i dont know why i have an attitude and my life is just so BLAH not to mention everything else..its just ugh..ok i think im done now sorry for boring those of u who actually read this..