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My Testimony
Posted On: 06/14/2006 15:49:18
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Let's see where should I begin, well I was born in July 1966, 
OK just joking, hehehehehehehehehe (rolling on floor laughin'). Ok seriously. You know I wish I could say that I have been serving Jesus all my life or least umteen years but I can't. As a kid I knew there was a God, in a Jesus name church, at around 10 or 11, I was mesmerized, if thats the right word, with the presence of God. But some bad things happened to me, I was young and I ran in the wrong direction, turned to drugs and drinking. In my late 20's I wanted a relationship with God. Went to a few churches searching for what I remembered as a kid. Couldn't find it. Wanted an easy worldly way but it didn't saitisfy. Then God drawed me to a UPC church and I found what I had always been searching for. I was the happiest I had every been in my life. The only thing lacking was my marriage, my husband was not saved, he hated my church, thought I was brainwashed, wanted me worldly. Well the meaner he got, I just knowed he was on the verge of getting saved. God had told me on a prayer room floor, "Love him to me". Well he had an affair (my worst fear), I knew it was the devil, but I couldn't live with it. I quit everything I was doing in church. I went into deep depression. Stayed in bed about a month, crying. Lost a lot of weight, quit praying, quit reading the bible, I didn't want to live. Suicide was a constant thought (only hell kept me from it) I would be lying in bed and scripture would go over and over in my head, (I knew angels were ministering to me). Well I backslide. With three children that had been in church most of there lives. I really messed up. For almost 4 years I was a drunk and druggie. Miserable. Not livin, just taking up space. Thinking how could I go back, I had done too much and ran too far. Hatred, jealously, resentment and a lot more ruled my life not counting all the addictions I had took back. And the thing was I couldn't forgive my husband, I stayed with him but made his life miserable for those years. So how in the world was I going to go back to Jesus after I had done the same thing to Him that my husband did to me. I was afraid to even think about giving up drinking, I didn't know how to live with out it. One day at work I hear (in my head LOL) that stupid little song, "Them bones, them bones, them dry bones, now hear the Word of the Lord. I started getting on line and reading the Bible and bible studies. Looking up things about backsliders. This went on about a month. With His Spirit drawing, I finally made my way back. And the MERCY, GRACE, and patience that He has had with me is unbelievable and unimaginable. I came back to life on August the 28th 2005. I jumped back head first. My kids are all renewed in the Holy Ghost. God has delivered me from jealousy, hatred, drinking, drugs, cigarettes and much, much more. And PRAISE THE LORD, my dream of my Husband repenting, being baptized in Jesus name and filled With the Holy Ghost has came to pass and started in December 2005. I truly know of his Mercy and Grace. I could never thank Him enough or praise Him enough. He is tooo Good. If God would forgive me, there is no one He wouldn't forgive. I love you Jesus!!!!!!
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