I have survived a lot in my life including deaths, illnesses, and a divorce previous in my life and God has forgiven me. I have not been happy in this marriage, just hurt, will God forgive another divorce? I know His love is faithful, but we are to be faithful to Him as well. I am starting to make moves to be getting a divorce and yet I love my husband in certain ways but not as a child and belittled prisoner that I am to my husband. It makes me sick most of the time to think what I put my daughter through with this husband. She says she has not seen me happy in many years that I have been with this husband. I sinned in living with him for two years, so I thought I had to marry him..know where I am getting at? I really want out of this depression and living with him is not going to make that ever happen because he encourages the depression. That I want to cut again shows me how wrong this situation is, can God change that or should I divorce. Understand how hard this is for me to ask God to forgive me twice. I love God more than ever. Will He forgive me again? I am in the search for happiness. And I am so confused about the whole thing.