So I'm standing over my kitchen sink this morning, mulling over a number of things and washing dishes, when I hear this voice.

Rachael, you need to let me take care of you.

Woah.  Wait a second.  Was that me thinking that God, or was that you?

Louder this time.

Rachael, you need to let me take care of you.

And I just KNEW.  That knowing that you have when you know that you know that you know that God has just directly spoken to your heart.

I had to let go of my new job last week.  Not getting paid and being asked to lie are against what I know is the Truth of God's Word.  It was a scary decision to make being that I'm still a single parent for the next five months and all that I have to depend upon right now is my unemployment income, which isn't near enough to cover all of my bills for an entire month.  I've applied for job after job after job and had eight interviews in that time frame.  No job offers, which is an unusual occurence for me.

In that instant of knowing, I had to stop washing dishes and go sit on the couch and just cry.  Because in that moment, God became so real to me and began to remind me of who He is as my husband.

So I've stepped out in faith, and I've told God that yes, I am going to trust Him to take care of me.  Not that it doesn't scare me, but my mentor tells me that she's gone through this kind of experience with God.  So while I'm a bit unnerved, I can't wait to see what God will do.  Sometimes, it's difficult to let go and let God be who He is.  I Am.