Why does it seem so easy for him?  How can he just want to forget about me? Why does he have peace about all this and I don't? Father, help me to understand.  I don't wanna cry myself to sleep every night.  Make my pain go away and replace it with your love and peace.  Guide my footsteps in this whole situation.  Give me the words to speak to him and him to me.  i don't wanna hurt anymore, I don't wanna be reminded of him with everything i hear and see and everwhere i go during my day.  I want to be able to be happy without pretending anymore.  i keep hearing him say it over and over in my head and everytime it cuts me deeper....God mend me, put the pieces of my heart back together, let me be able to hear his voice and not cry everytime i do.  Give me the strength to be able to talk to him.  He said he never wanted to leave me but he did....but You make the same promise and I know you won't leave me.  So i am asking that You pour out Your spirit all over me and let me feel You and only You.  Father give me the strength to stand again.  In Jusus' name. Amen