Hi Everyone,

Today's blog is very personal and I will probably receive some backlash because of it, but at this point in my life, I just want to be healed of every sickness and disease in my body, and free from the guilt and shame of my past.

In 1993, some things happend in my life that I should have handled differently, but because I handled them the way that I did, I lost and hurt three very special people in my life - (they know who they are). I love  them more than I could ever, ever, say. Today, God, in His graciousness, has restored my relationship with two of them. I thank God for that, but I desire to have ALL of my relationships restored.

I am so sorry for hurting my three special people. I have grieved over and over again for hurting them, yet I cannot get over the guilt, shame and pain of ever losing my relationship with them. I want to go back to 1993 and relive it. I would certainly do things differently. I would certainly not make the same mistakes.

Because I want to be back in relationship with special person #3, I am sending an open apology. She may not believe that I am sincere, but I am. I am so very sorry that I hurt you. I am so very sorry that I caused you unimaginable pain. I am so sorry that I caused you to hate me. If you never believe anything else, baby, believe that I love you and that I am truly sorry for my actions - that I did not seek God for direction, but rather acted on selfishness and bad advice. If I had sought God, things would have turned out differently and you would not be hurting, angry and bitter towards me.

All people make mistakes. I believe we all, if we had the chance to, would go back and change some things and make them right. I believe that being truly sorry for bad decisions can bring healing, and healing is what I desire today.

God has been good to me, despite this lump in my heart. God has been good to me, despite what the devil sent for evil. God has been good to me, despite what happened in the past. God is still God and He loves me and without HIM in my life, I could not go through another day. I praise God for being so good to me even though I let HIM down, too.

Thank You God for Your love and forgiveness, and please bless my very special person #3 today, tomorrow and always and let her know that I love her.

I love you, baby.

All comments are welcome and prayer is appreciated

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Sisters, (and Brothers) It's Time To Raze Hell!!!

How many women out there are hell raisers? Yes, many of us know how to get our points across. We know just what to say and just how to say it to get the results we are looking for. Sometimes we raise hell for unnecessary reasons, while at other times, we raise hell for what we call "valid" reasons.

   At this point and time in my life, I am tired of raising hell, and now ready to RAZE HELL. What is the difference? Raising hell means arguing and fussing and tearing things up in the natural. Now it's time to tear things down in the spirit realm. I am ready to tear down the hell that has been in my life for so many years. Why am I ready now? Because I have the right tools to do so. 

Raze means to tear down, to demolish. The Bible says in Ephesians 6:12 "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places".  So, the hell that we have been raising against one another is not the kind of hell God wants us to raze. We must tear down the the destruction of the enemy. We must fight in the spirit because the Bible tells us that the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through GOD, to the pulling down (razing) of strongholds, casting down (razing) imaginations and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ (2 Corinthians 10:3-6), but in order to raze hell, we must have the right armor on and the right weapons. Let's look at Ephesians 6:10-18 "Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might. Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness; And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace; Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God: Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints;

Notice in Ephesians 6:10 how God has given us the weapons for the razing. He lets us know that it is not going to be a onesided fight. The enemy has weapons too (fear, anger, doubt, etc). But we know that God has not given us the spirit of fear, but of POWER and of LOVE a of a SOUND MIND.

Notice the green highligted area above. There we see that the enemy will send FIERY DARTS. He will send things to try to destroy us, but God has given us His Word to prepare us for the razing, however, if we don't know the Word and know about the weapons of our warfare, then we give place to the devil. It is not a good strategy to wait for the war to get prepared. We must prepare for war BEFORE the war happens. Truth be told, the war (in the spirit) is never over so we must stay prepared because although the devil may retreat for a moment, he is yet lurking to launch another attack (1 Peter 5:8: Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour).

Sisters, (and brothers), let's stop raising hell with one another and begin to raze hell in the spirit. God has already given us the victory!

Lady Rev

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