The love of my life [[Stephen Josiah Mize ((Brokenheartedlove))]] told me last nite that he has fallen in love with my best friend ever [[Leya Ann Smith ((Hottchick))]] yesterday waz supposed 2 b a good day cuz it waz my mom's birthday... bt while we were out @ Ryan's[[sum resteraunt]] i got a text saying that Josiah only liked me as a friend -n- that he had fallen in love wit Leya...idk wat 2 do or say :( bt it made me vry sad wen he told me that -n- i kinda got mad @ him -n- Leya -n- i told her dat i didnt wanna tlk 2 her well after i kalmed dwn -n- relaxed a lil bit... I cried... he kaled me on da fone -n- i started 2 cry i didnt want 2 bt i did -n- he said Torrie plz dont cry... then a few hours later i waz listening 2 our songs [[yes we had 2 of them -n- now they bth make me cry]] im uberly sad -n- upset -n- i told my friend David [[Drummerguy4God]] dat i wanted 2 end my life so i wouldnt have 2 deal wit ne mre heart ache... bt of course David make me feel a lil better so im stil here... bt idk wat if Josiah asks me bac out? i mean i love him wit al my heart... just knowing he is in love wit Leya hurts me i am hurt and confused and scared i didnt want 2 lose him cuz he completed me... bt now that he is gone im not sure nemre wat love is... although maybe love isnt real maybe its just a made ^ thing... im hurt and i wanna cry evn mre cuz i no i have 2 change my relationship on ehre 2 single bt dat wil hurt cuz then i wil no dat i have lost him -n- i'l nvr get him bac i ddint wanna evr lose him again -n- my nightmare has kum true is there sumthing rong wit me? y is it always me dat gets hurt? i kant handle much mre pain cuz evn b4 dat i waz sad... cuz if sum of u guys no im a BIG Hawthore Heights fan -n- i found on Sunday that Casey Calvert died so 2day i waz mourning the loss of my love -n- then of Casey... my heart has been broken bt evn though he broke it if he wanted it bac i would freely give  Josiah my

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