I am reading several books right now on the life of George Muller. I am becoming more and more impressed and challenged. I mean only three days ago the most I knew about this man was that he helped in some orphanages and that one time he had no food or drink in the whole residence and he prayed for the meal and just as he finished the prayer a man showed up at the door saying that his cart had a broken wheel and that he was not going to be able to save the milk in the cart and so wanted to donate it so that it would not go to waste, right after that man left another came to the door with a similar story only this time he was donating bread. Enough to feed the whole orphanage. Anway, that is all I knew about this man and now I only know a little more, but the two lessons that the Lord has been trying to teach me my last 4 years in college and even now is that I should have faith in the Lord for everything and that He wants me to ask for things, He delights in giving me good things and here I am thinking that I shouldn't ask for things because somehow that is taking advantage of the Lord, but if it is in accordance with His will there is nothing that I can not ask for in His name. The Lord has also been trying to teach me is to trust, I guess faith and trust are on the same level, but I have such a hard time just letting God be God. The Lord has stripped me of a lot in the past couple of months. All of the things that I thought made me who I am. My relationship with Jeff, college, and the identity that I had there. I know that I am so blessed, but it's like everything that i thought that I was was tied up somehow in relationships and school. The grades, the social scene, that leadership positions, the people that I hung out with, even what dorm I lived in, and now none of it matters, and no one really cares about any of those things. I know that people like me for more then those things, but sometimes you just get so blinded by them that you can not see yourself clearly any more. I know that the Lord is trying to show me that my identity is solely in Him and that all of these other "identifiers" had to be stripped away so that I could see myself the way that He sees me. That HE is ALL that matters. No matter where I am or who He is forming me to be. Keep it real. . .
