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in the first part of this testimony i told you who i was. i have come very far in the past few years but ultimately its not quite there yet. but it will be. these past few years have rewarded me by allowing me to work with mobile masters commision at house of horrors. it is a Christian horror house that ends up drawing people into christ. i cannt go into to many detailss but it is the largest horror house in the south east. most nights i worked the heart breaking reality seen that was extremely powerful that i loved doing...suicide. one memory still haunts me of one lady that screamed out as i fired the helty shot in the other room wwhere they couldn't see me. she screamed in pain and i thot it had ricoshed dsomehow and hit her. her husband had commited suicide earlier and my mom prayed with her before she left because she coulldn't get all the way through. im planning on working with them in masters in mardi gras but i dont know. for those who dont know masters is a group you can join some time after high school that takes you all over the world ministering. during this time you are also taken through a radical life changing experience that not only shows you but thousands of school kids and foriegners that God is all powerful and we trul;y can do anything through him. i myself am planning on taking this commitment after high school. i am currently living with my grandparents praying for patience and clarity. they have come to me but not as deeply as i would have hoped. it seems though i have finally hit an upward slope. downhill is not my option. i am currently writing three novels two of those are the launch of a trilogy and one of which i have reached close to the one fifty page marker. in fairy tales they always have a happy ending... i have the luxurey of not having an ending at all.
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Tags: Finding My High Road
(speaks very quickly)people say im crazy. I'm not Crazy. i would know if i was crazy. hey look pink fluffy bunny. but im not crazy if i was crazy pink fluffy bunny would eat my brains. so i know im not crazy everybody else is crazy. im not crazy pink fluffy bunny aint eaten my brains so i know im not crazy. if i was crazy pink fluffy bunny would eat my brains. every body else is crazy cause pink fluffy bunny eat everybody elses brains but not me so i know im not crazy. uhhhh, can i have fries with that. C:Documents and SettingsDORIS.GEORGE-1My DocumentsMy PicturesPinkfluffybunn of dooom.jpg
My life is a sequal to a very sad tragedy. In 1993 Alabama won its last championship. If Alabama had not gone to nationals. I probably would not even exist. I was concieved out of rape that night. 8 months and 2 weeks later I was born. My mom married a guy. He was a nice guy and all, but when they got married he changed. he quickly became a wife beater. Once my mom finally got up the courage to leave him I myself was violent, afraid, and confused. Another year went by and before I was even really saved I was praying for a dad. My mom met this guy who was a friend of my cousins. The man had a crush on my mom years before and he proposed with in a few months. She thinking only of me married him. He was a very good dad at first, but slowly and surely he also began to change. One day my mom was in his office & found child porn. Things started happening that I didn't understand. One night my mom came in & told me they were getting a divorce. I didn't know what to think. That was something I had thought would never happen in my family. The Lord saw that my mom needed comfort and could not take to much more, so through me he comforted her. i remember vividly telling her it would be okay and her coming in and crying in my arms telling me "she loved me that, she was so sorry". My life was pretty much a bunch of hills after that. See he had lied to my mom about the bills, and we almost lost everything because of it. Not to long after the divorce I met a very poisenous venom... porn. I became secretly addicted to porn. that was a addiction i had fought with for years when my mom met a guy. My mom had made a promise to me that she would never mary someone again for me. That she absolutly would love him if she married him. she and this guy did fall in love. he had also just been divorced and had a 14 year old daughter. right before thhey got married, I found some porn on his computer. I never told my mom.it was about that time or a little before that it hit, hurricane katrina. we sat on the couches of his house watching the water rise. we saw turtle swimming tryin to beat the current and live. Noone had slept the night before. we all slept to the sound of savage wind and rain. i went back to sleep on the chouch not sure if i would wake back up. when i woke up the water was to my knees. i looked outside and saw that the turtle had given up and was being beat down by the current. Eventualy the storm was over and we all walked ut onto the deck and watched the sky. there was a magnifacent orange hue that was so beutiful. The next day we found out that the pretty lights was somebodyies home burning down and someone was in it. i almost broke down right there. well we got the house back together and my mom and the guy married. she was happier than I had seen in a long time. Come to find out his daughter was bipolar. When my mom and him got married she started treating my mom like dirt. Soon after he left to Tennessee to do some buissness. Then everything went wrong. My mom got sick and started having very bad pains. The daughter kept getting meaner and meaner until I didn't recognize her from the time i had met her. when doug came back he asked my mom for a divorce and kicked us out of the house. We ended up at my grandparents house(a livin torture house) my mom they found out had kidney stones and lots of them. she spent three months in the hospital so drugged on morphene she couldn't remember eating a hamburger. The man had tried to force her to sign the papers(divorce) while she was drugged. he also took the liberty of coming and taking her car that he gave to her with his key. when she did get out she was still passing stones. We started going back to my home church that had led me to Christ and where I first heard God and everything like that. i returned and saw the girl who had put the biggest twist in my life. She and i had liked each other for years and i finally got the musccle to ak for her number(with a little help from my best friend) We talked and i noted how i envied her cuz' she didn't have to deal with phsyco grandparents all day long ect. I know many have said I'm to young to love but that isn't true because the only other time i feel like i do when I'm around her is when I'm in the presence of the Lord. Idon't talk that easily with her any more not because I don't have anything to say but because I'm overwhelmed. I madly love her and I pray each day she feels the same about me. Youth revival startedand on the second night my life got a turn around. the thing was on Fatherless children. when they did the alter call i was the first up there. many others soon came but i will never know quite how many because i was in the presance of the Lord and he was healing my wounds. One of the men who had prayed for me I came to call my father and i still do. you know the main stuff of my life and I'm proud to say that the Lord has set me free from porn, lust , anger, hate, and distrust. Ipray for everyone in my testimony and I want to let you know if you got anything from this i am praying for you too. &nb sp; &nb sp; the end...for now
hey guys this is a song I wrote for my band so here   I'm not a monster/ I'm not a goone/ I'm just a fool in love with you/ I'm not a monster/ I'm not a loone/ I'm not a lifeless, lifeless shell inside of you/ I'm not a monster/ I try so hard to take control/ I try so hard, to fit you in my soul/ but i am full cuz' I fill my heart with coal/ i will set my heart to flames/ & watch it burn I try so hard to let you know/ to show you before I go, I love you so/ Now I've got to fight for what I know is right & what I assume/ with all my might I promise to fight to try to make some room/ to try to make me better for you/ and I hope you know I'm not a monster/ I'm not a goone/ I'm just a fool in love with you
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