Little Antoneo's updates for now
Current mood: 
tired
Category: Life
Antoneo James,
He Has not done anything different lately but grow, and get more teeth,
of course everybody knows he can crawl and now he is into everything, expecially eletronics.. he has hit a stage where he want me or his dad to be in the room and if he dont see us he screams.
He has figured out who every body in the house is, mama dada and esa which is his older sister tesa, who he loves so much everytime he see's her he smile's really big and he is always looking for her, his new place to go is the bathroom to try and find her, because when she is here she is always in the mirror or her room, so he goes in her room and if he dosent see her he goes in to the bathroom.. then he will get sad...
he now has 7 teeth and is still teething.. 3 on the bottom and 4 on the top but there my be more he wont let me look anymore, he will just turn his head and try and get away, he also can pull him self up on anything now, he trys to stand but is not that good at it. He mostly lets go of stuff and then falls straight to the ground..he will walk with you if you hold one hand, but he is only 7 months about to be 8 on the 28th of april, which is in two days. He loves people, and toys, he can kiss people and blow kisses, he waves at people and talks alot, he can say several things like mama, dada, baba, hi, esa (tesa), etc. he has a very hi vocabulary, he can say two sentence's. I love you, and I did it. He has always been a chatter box,
He wieghs 19 pounds maybe 20 now or more I will find out may 2nd how much he wieghs.....he weres size 3 shoe and is about 28 or 29 inches tall.. he is growing out of 6 to 9 month cloths and just plain 9 month I am going to have to buy bigger sizes... well I have got to go I am very tired............
byby
I found some of my old poems.. thought I would post them....
Current mood: 
amused
Category: Writing and Poetry
sorry that they are all different I wrote them at different times in my life. they were in my documents. I saw them and I decided to post them.. hope you all injoy them.. or not you dont have to.. but here is a little me to give to you..remeber these poems I wrote a long time ago.. well not that long some 2, or 3, years ago, I made them all different colors so you can tell when they end, and when a new one begins.
Who I am
So many memories I want to forget,
That I've tried so hard to erase.
Memories of drunken fights and stolen innocence,
Fading out what few memories are good.
Wondering lost without direction,
Hoping to escape the past.
I stumble over road blocks,
Bringing all the memories back.
Being told that I'm a failure,
And believing every word.
Everything has always been my fault,
I'm worthless and no good.
An innocent teenager trying to sleep,
When an all too familiar figure returns.
Everyone says that I'm so strong,
But I know that's not true.
No one but me sees the broken inside,
&nb sp; Where all the scars still bleed a new..
Color
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Your smile your laugh
Drives my heart crazy
Are you sure you arnt my other half
When our eyes lock time seems to stop
I wanna be frozen in that moment forever
But some how it dosent seem long enough
That's when it hits me
Your still in love with her
To you I am just there
In black in white but some day
You will see all along the girl in color
You were seaching for was
Me!!!!!!!!!!!
Midnight Emotions
A heart that bleeds in silence,
Freely flowing anguish.
Tears mixing with blood unshed,
Pain no one should bare.
Alone in a cloak of darkness,
Pulled farther into the abyss.
Left standing without support,
While others continue on.
Misunderstood in so many ways,
Overlooked by so many people.
Lost amongst the chaos,
Trapped within the confusion.
Sinking deeper ever moment,
Wishing to breathe a last breathe.
Crying without teardrops,
Laughing without happiness.
Fearing the world ahead,
Afraid to stay in this place.
Insecure in who she is,
Unsure of what she needs.
Solitary in a mass of injustice,
&nb sp; &nb sp; Weak from the blows that fall.
Things
Things-what are they?
Things-where are they
Things-can you see them
Things-can you feel them-
Things- are they round
Things-are they flat
Things-are they here or they are they everywhere
What is a thing
sorry
I love you
cant you see
that this love
you have for me
will never bee
cant you see that
you and I will never be
there are things in life you
just cant see
I do love you but I have to be free
dont worrie its not you
Its me
baby you'll see on day
and I gotta say
that you'll thank me...
These demons, they knock me down,
They come from all around.
Memories that won't let go,
A past that I refuse to show.
My heart held captive for so long,
Needs to sing freedom's song.
Locked away in a place of darkness,
Living in such deep distress.
Ripped apart from all sides,
My soul with fear always hides.
The demons are constantly coming for me,
But no one else can see.
Sneaking up from behind,
The open wounds they easily find.
Somehow shredding from within,
I never know how to begin.
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
my life unfolded
Current mood: 
annoyed
Category: Blogging
My life before I was a mom was okay I liked it..
I went out, hung with friend, played in a band, I sang, I danced, I hung with freinds, partied, I was crazy and bad too I somked weed, I drank, skipped school, had sex, cused all the time and then I met somebody and I feel in love, stoped smoking, stoped drinking, stoped cursing, stoped parting, stoped all the bad stuff and turned my life around and actully wanted to do something with it.
I actully wanted to go to school, and get a job and have a home and a nice place to live and be happy.. so far I have a job have a place to live have a wonderful boyfirend and a son and a step daughter who loves me and her little brother that I gave her.. I really dont care about what people have to say about me and my relationship with atto, because I am happy he makes me happy and he has made my life so much more happier then that what it used to be..I know my life isnt perfect nobodies is.. but I like my life how many people out there can say that.. I actully like my life........
I mean if you look at it, it is a good life I have a job, it may not pay much but I still have it, I have a home, I have a boyfriend soon to be husband, I have a son, I have a step daughter, I have cable. internet, and phone, I have a car, that keeps getting stole or broke into but I still have it. I have a pretty good life.. and I like it...
sorry i keep going on but I just need to write it down.. lots of people I know always say, what do you have going for you.. your life isnt going anywhere and I am tired of hearing it.. I want to be encourged and told you have acomplished things in you life. that is what i want to hear not things that i havent done..
there is things wrong with people now a days they only see the negative and poeple should start to see the positive.. if you take a look at your life and try and come up with 10 postive things that actully mean something to you intead of negative and you will see that it is a lot harder to come up with good things intead of bad.. I can think of ten bad things faster than I can think of good but I dont want to focus on those anymore.. from here on out I just want to see the good in life.. not let anyone else bring me down.. keep my head up and stay strong fo rme and my baby..
because how am I going to be strong for my son if I cant be strong for me, I need to be strong for me so I can for him..
well that is all I have to say for now...
Monday, March 26, 2007
my tonino
Current mood: amused
Category: Life
baby tonino has got 5 teeth and has more on the way i feel like he is growing so fast.. he also can pull him self to a complete stand he started doing that on friday.. I think its probley because he was watching her do it and decided he should too... he a little copier he will see sombody do it and try to do it him self.........and his most favroit things to do are mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.. and grind his teeth......:)
jt
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
on the move
Current mood: 
mellow
my little man is on the move he has got it down he started crawling forwad on monday.. I am soo excited he can move.. I was worried for a wile thinking he was only going to be going backwords but he did it he can CRAWL wow he is growing so fast.... 4 teeth and 1 more coming................................
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
4 teeth
Current mood: 
exhausted
hello everybody I have one more update on my sweet little boy...
can you say the number 4. I can because my son has now got 4 baby teeth. It all happend when he was becoming really fussy these past week and a half and I look in is month and sure enough 2 teeth poped right out so he now has got 2 bottom teeth and 2 top teeth just soo cute.. o still Not crawling foward yet just backwards but I am pretty sure in a couple days to a week he should be crlwing everyway... all he can do is scoot forwad twice the gives up turns and just goes backwards.................. well tell you more when something new happens
jt
Thursday, March 01, 2007
antoneo update 6 months apt...
Current mood: amused
Category: Life
nothing much but he now weighs 16lbs 10oz and is 26 1/4 tall just getting bigger and bigger.. still not crawling forward but has got the backwords thing down packed its really cute though.. he is trying so hard to go foward it's funny he just gets up n all four and rocks back and fourth. then he just starts going backwards.. strang little boy. but just too cute...
Thursday, February 22, 2007
on the move backwords
Current mood: 
accomplished
tonino can move now but not foward its the starngest thing he can crawl but only backwords, and sidways, he cant go foward its so strang, but he is a talking machine just blah blah blah all day long... he is now fully in 6 to 9 month cloths.. well thats pretty much it..
Sunday, February 18, 2007
child development 4-5 months
Current mood: tired
4 - 5 MONTHS
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Is active and playful. Too active for infant seat.
Childproof your home NOW!
Rolls from side to side. May creep or "commando crawl".
Holds up chest when lying on tummy by pushing up with hands. May lift both arms and legs while on tummy.
Leans head forward to grab his toes while lying on his back. May suck on toes.
Can hold his entire weight on his legs when supported in a standing position.
Helps pull herself to sitting position. Supports head when held in sitting position.
Sits with support for longer periods. Try propping with pillows, but never leave baby unattended in this position.
Reaches and grasps some objects. Begins one handed reach and may transfer objects from hand to hand to mouth. Hand begins to adjust to shape and size of object when reaching.
Shakes and turns rattle. Loves to grab earrings, glasses, hair, necklaces and bracelets. Carefully studies objects placed in hand.
Is learning his actions have a result. Hits mobile to make it swing.
Easily brings objects to mouth. Explores everything with mouth
Plays contentedly with fingers and hands.
Usually sleeps through the night and wakes quickly in the morning. May play in crib with a toy before you get there.
Focuses clearly near and far. Developing depth perception. Sees in full color. Likes orange, blue and green.
Acknowledges bottle gleefully. Grasps bottle in attempt to feed himself. Enjoys playful exchanges while feeding. May nurse at the breast longer.
Fascinated with mirror image. Smiles in response to mirror image. May pat image.
Turns head purposefully in response to human voice. May follow familiar people as they leave the room. Looks where you look.
Smiles and coos when talked to. May cough for attention. may vocalize to draw mother's attention when she is engaged in conversation with someone else. Makes raspberries and smacks lips.
Laughs and giggles while playing and socializing. Will play alone for 10-15 minutes. Loves to play peekaboo.
Basks in attention. Extends hands like "pick me up". Will look at floor, squirm and fuss as in saying, "put me down".
Is intensely absorbed in what is going on. Studies people outside immediate family.
Just begins to realize objects exist even when out of site. Begins to compare objects to self (i.e. sucks on toes and sucks on toy to feel the difference)
Explores genitals by poking and pulling.
Shows discomfort or dislike by pushing things away, pulling or scratching at herself...
Monday, February 05, 2007
antoneo
Current mood: 
frustrated
Category: Life
antoneo now weighs
16 pounds 1 oz..
and is
26 1/4 inches long
just now getting into 9mounth clothes he can wear 3 to 6 month but he is to tall..
he also formed 2 buds for his two top teeth..
well thats all for the new news. he isnt doing anything else..
angry 
. well I also found out that one of the medications that the doctor perscribed him, has been known to kill infints under the age of two, you cant tell me that I wouldnt be upset, when I found that out I almost had a melt down, wondering if my son was going to be okay or not, so right now we are in the transtion on changing my son's doctor to somebody else because I dont want the doctor that perscibed my son something that can kill him I want a new one, so so every one that has doctor Lew at puyallup trible health athority change him I will NEVER have my son go to him ever again,
, he is seeing a doctor now that will be his doctor permently his name is doctor reid at tacoma south in parkland, 
sad