i want so much to just run him over with my truck..... lol
tim told me alot of things and none of them nice or even right. he was a total jerk and i really lost it. its like he is bipolar cause one day its all getting better and then the next its like i never even meant a thing to him. blah. i wish that i could just fix everything. not get back with him just make it where we dont scream at each other everytime we are in the same room. he just makes me sooooo mad!!!!!!! i dont understand it all and i dont know what to do other than yell!!! i wish that i could just change it all. because it just hurts right now. but that really doesnt matter to him or at least he acted like it didnt but i did do my best to hurt him. but he was so cruel that i couldnt help it i said what i knew what would hurt him. it was wrong and i tried to apologize but it was too late and he hates me now...... but if anyone deserves to despise anyone its me to him.... but i dont and i cant and that annoys me more than anything! i dont want to love him. i dont even want to like him right now but i still love him no matter what he said and i cant figure out why......

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