This morning  as I prayed to God with a huge burden on my heart  tears  were running on my cheek...I was so  agonized, thought that I will die if God doesnt help to me.Sometimes we do   things   like a headles  fly  without considering what the results can be..and after when we get to the edge of the situation  it must besimilar feeling   as Jesus'es coming for a person who has always rejected God.

That is how I felt not more then 25 minutes ago.I so needed God's grace and a new chance from Him and even if I  know how weak I am I offered Him a     thing what is really precious for me and it would be not easy to avoid   for a long term.But still...And then miracle happened.even my situation was almost hopeless first I read a PSalm(13)

Consider and hear me, O LORD my God: lighten mine eyes, lest I sleep the sleep of death; Lest mine enemy say, I have prevailed against him; and those that trouble me rejoice when I am moved.  But I have trusted in thy mercy; my heart shall rejoice in thy salvation.  I will sing unto the LORD, because he hath dealt bountifully with me.

Exactly that was my prayer..And then God gave me what I asked Him to give---whoo-hoo

I know God wants me to be a new creature with totally new mindset.With this deed and by showing his grace he moved me to do the second step to reach this.Why I say "the second step"?because  the day is not today when He has started to speak to me...It is a long long process...

It seems that I am like theIsraelites...I have to be totally broken   so that God could teach me and form me..I am a stupid stubborn girl...But "all things are possible...all things are possible...for God":-)

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