A DilemmaI am really wondering where I should post this...Do I post it here where no one will actually respond or do I post it to my Christian sites?

Since I got here in PC in July, I have taken care of everyone except me...I have been just surviving when I could've driven on down the road.

I got here to a major mess with my children, when all the lies and troubles were never actually exposed for what they really were.
I got talked to as if I was no one of importance, let alone "the rescuer" I tried to be. I sat by and watched daily as the drama got worse and the voices got louder. I got told "I told you so" and "shut up", but I still remained here to try and "make things better". I didn't-I only moved the trouble to a different location, with different players.

I was told by someone that I teach people how to treat me and I suppose the years of not respecting myself has come back to show me what I taught my children and the people around me.

I can respond to being a prisoner in my own house as well, my child. I have been a prisoner in alot of ways. Whether it was the actual process of losing my freedon to a real prison cuz of my selfishness or whether it was a prisoner to the addictions throughout my life. I am a prisoner of my own room now. I ask God daily to bless me with a way to solve all these dilemmas.

I ask for guidance in how to respond to the desires of everyone else but me. I have learned to be tolerent and know how to make use of my free time. But I am a prisoner of my own doing now and I regret being here every minute of the day...

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