I wonder why we have to keep repeating trials in life. I think I am learning something, but it is not always what God wants me to learn. I have learned that I am not a perfect parent, nor am I a perfect wife, nor am I a perfect friend. :confused1: I have learned that kids are watching and listening to your every word, deed and sometimes I think they are inside my head! I can't stop my children from making wrong decisions, but I can guide them to have a clear conscience about those they do make. I have also learned that I am not my husband. He is an adult and for most of his life he has made his own decisions. It is not my responsibility to make his choices for him. I have also learned that it is not always easy being a friend. Sometimes friends say or do things, sometimes I say and do things that could potentaly ruin a friendship. Even when done out of love. :oops: It has not always been an easy road to accept my failures.:crying: I do know that with the help of my Savior, Jesus Christ, I can do all things. Even if I have to suffer and surrender to the pain of doing them. Being a parent is no easy task. I just hope that the learning curve will accommodate me. I still think that life is good with children.:scared: I try to do for others as much as I can. I crochet and knit caps and booties with my needlework guild, for the babies and children at Children's Hospital and the Ronald McDonald house. I try to get my children to bed on time with all of the specifics. NO EASY TASK!!!! I try to be as loving and supportive as I am able to my family and friends. I pray as often as the mood strikes me, OFTEN! :innocent: But I am not what everyone thinks of as the perfect Christian. I am a sinner, I still smoke cigarettes,:em0200: I occasionally curse like a sailor,:boat::omg_smile: and I fight very hard at being in this world but not of this world. :shuriken: It is my belief that we are all here to learn, and through our struggles we obtain what God wants us to be. I am NOT perfect, sometimes I don't even like myself.:em0400: I know that as a child of God, that he loves me, which makes me love myself. :natio:

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