A few day ago, someone whom I love, said something to me that I have had a difficult forgiving them for. You see, they said it in anger with the intention of hurting me. I know that we have to forgive, but there are times when the pain of words can make doing the very thing that you must do to be free, difficult. I thought that by writing this, my thoughts might turn to the Lord who would compel me to do what I know it is he wants me to do. The person who said "Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me", had it very wrong. The pain caused by these words hurt more than any pain I have ever experienced. That is no exaggeration, when I was younger I was shot with a gun, and that injury didn't hurt as much as this does. I believe that my friend is believing a lie from the devil, and Im praying, and believing that the truth outshine this lie. I have thought about every word said and have examined my heart to make sure that there was no truth to it, have found none. I have asked them to help clarify what it they said, to help me understand why they would say it. They said that this was just the way they felt about me. I even asked them if they would be willing to hear from God to help change the way they were feeling, and they responded with a quick no! If this was someone whom I hardly knew, it would be easy to just forgive this person and move on, but this is someone that I love, someone I believe that I would have laid my life down for. I dont want this to this to be the end of a wonderful friendship, but even when I forgive them for what they said, I still have the dilema of these being genuine feelings for this person. Please pray for both of us, for me to be all that God wants me to be for my friend, for my friend that they will examine their heart too, and hear from the Lord about the way they feel, and that they will hear from me about my genuine love for them. I have more than one relationship that I'm struggling with, I'm not sure that this is one i would like to see taken away by the enemy.

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