I Wish i could tell everyone how i feel ... i wish i could tell my mom ... but i am afraid she wont talk to me ... i wish i could tell my friends about my whole life and family and everything .. but it seems like they dont care ... i wish i could telll my dad everything about my whole life ... but it is just too weird and hard to tell him ... and i wish i could tell matt how i feel ... but i want to protect my heart ... i dont know how he feels .. i wish i did ... i have known him for sooo long ... it would take forever to write out how i met him and the whole story ... but still after all these years ... i feel sooo lonely ... i dont know what to do anymore ... i constantly feel depressed and i cant help but feel that way ... :(