It's been over a year since my last visit here. So much has happened.The last time I was here I was recovering from a fatal heart attack I had gone through. I'm completely well now and have not been back to the hospital since. Good thing because I had a long road to travel ...a road which I have finally reached the end of....for now. My HUsband finally divorced me...he had left me in Aug. 2005 for another woman that he was having an affair with unbeknownst to me. For two years I fought him and struggled to survive as I was a heart patient way back then, before the death, which he deliberately caused. I lost bitterly in the divorce and was ejected from my home of 16 years, with very little money to carry me through. I made my way to Ocala, Fl. to live with my Parents, taking only what I could fit in my car along with my two precious doggies, which he didnt manage to wrest away from me. It's been 4 months since all this happened. I'm finally beginning to recover. This was the hardest, most painful thing I have ever gone through in my entire life. I hadnt felt like doing anything for a long time , but I must be feeling better because here I am. I have so missed this place of love and comfort, but I was ashamed to share all this with my loved ones, here, because I didnt just go through the divorce....something else, very bad, happened. That's fodder for another story. I'm just glad to be back here where I'm loved, as a Christian. Lately, I've been under attack by people for being Catholic. I made the mistake of saying homosexuality was against the Lords laws and they ripped me to shreds. They said Jesus taught us to love one another...that if I'm an example of the "new Christianity" they want nothing to do with it or people like me. That Catholics are warped and a cult religion. I KNOW where this is coming from but after all I've been through it made me feel really sad. It made me question, you know? Which, of course, is exactly how satan attacks us. I just needed to be here...to "run home" ...to be with people who wont bash me for being Catholic. To soothe my damaged emotions.  It's been a nightmare these two years and I've stayed strong in my love for Abba and Jesus and the Holy Spirit...but I'm feeling weak today.....Please pray for me.....

Diane

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