Hi Jacque... First of all you need to give ALL your problems to God and trust him with them. Don't worry about the future ... Don't worry about tomorrow... "Live" for today and I mean LIVE!!! Start each morning in Prayer... Thanking God for all the many blessings in your life... your son, your family, your friends, your job, your health, etc. ... then ask him to help you face the day with a happy heart. Also make the best of what little time you have with your son. He (as I'm sure you already know) is the most precious gift God has ever given you. About your weight problem... First... LOVE YOURSELF!!!! Secondly... If you know you're going to feel better about yourself if you were to lose weight then start TODAY!!! :o) ... Make yourself a promise that you will NOT buy chocolate, chips, etc. etc. etc. You can't eat it if you don't buy it. Right?? Replace those things with healthy foods. Foods that are going to help you shed pounds if eaten in moderation. Nowadays...There are so many yummy low fat foods to chose from. When you have some free time (when your lil' munchkin is napping or in bed for the night) ... get on the computer and look up information about dieting (no fade diets using diet pills) and excercize. If at all possible... take 30 minutes out of your day to do some kind of excercize that will step-up your heart rate. Do it faithfully 4-6 times a week. Don't make unreasonable expectations. Give yourself a yr. (or whatever) to lose the weight. Find an accountability partner who (like you) wants to lose weight or someone who has that nice figure that you want and will inspire you. Buy an outfit the next size down. An outfit that you know you'll look fantastic in!!! Oh... I could go on and on and on... but I won't. lol ... I'd just like to say one last thing... Lose weight for YOU not because you're trying to get some guy's attention. If a guy doesn't pay attention to you when you're obese then he's shallow minded anyways... because it doesn't matter if you're 100 lbs. over weight or your the perfect size for your height... You are still YOU and you are someone who is worth knowing, reguardless of your size. But don't let the last sentence stop you from starting a diet/excercize plan. If it will help you with your self-esteem which is probably the biggest part of this problem with your depression... It'll be worth it!!!! And remember... Our bodies are a temple of the holy spirit... He abides in us therefor we are to take care of our bodies.

I will be praying for you, Jacque!!!

Much Love, Joy

PS Jacque... I would be more than happy to be your  "accountability partner". Let me know.