I am grateful for all those who have been lifting me up, I truly am and I appreciate it as I need the strength from God to help do what I am about to do for I have finanly realized I have to change my situation and get out of this dead end all consuming marriage of mine. I know the Lord says not to divorce but He would not want us to stay in an abusive situation would he? I thank God for my friends that I have found here and I love them all. I didn't mean to drain you out I just needed a prayer to do what I am about to do, thank you everybody for their love and encouragement.