I thought the title would get your attention.  I know everyone thinks I'm weird because I'm still thinkin' about my ex-girlfriend, but it's hard.  Don't get me wrong it's not an all day thing, just once in a while.  Like when someone mentions something about it or I'm alone and start thinkin, or sometimes when I see her at church, but not always.  The thing I was wanting to talk about is there is something that strongly wants me to HATE her with all my heart, but that's not the type of person I am.  I don't hate her one bit.  Really I just want her to be happy no matter what, and no matter who she is with.  I know it sounds all mushy or whatever but that's just the way I am.  I don't wish anything bad upon her or anything like that, I'm tryin to forgive.  Yes, I'd be lyin' if I told you that I had all ready forgiven and moved on, but that's not the case, I pray every night that God will show me his plan for me, and that he give me the strength to move on if that's what was meant to be, but for some reason I just can't let go.  SORRY FOR GOING ON AND ON TO ALL OF YOU ABOUT THIS, IT'S JUST SOMETHING I NEEDED TO WRITE DOWN.  LOVE YOU'LL.

-JOSH-

Bookmark: