The event that you about to read is true and correct to the best of my knowledge and memory, it happen over 24 months ago. Please comment if you want to inquire more. God bless your daily life as he bless mine."He gave me a chance to change my ways"-Nam. My girlfriend took a week off from work to go to her family in Hawaii for a funeral. Her cousin passed away due to a severe impact in a car accident, within that time I was working at The Good Guys store. I also took a week off from work, not to go with her to Hawaii but to stay home and get high, smoking meth and cocaine everyday none-stop. At this point I havent been sleeping for days, a week of being high on cocaine and meth, havent had any sleep. Everyday I would call my girlfriend on her cellular phone or she would call me just to be in touch but I know I wasnt feeling well and something is or going to be terribly wrong with me but dont know how to let her know. Every time we talked we would fight verbally and it seems like our relationship would went sour. She has to mourn with her family for the death of her cousin and here I am frustrating and bothering her with my conclusion of her being over Hawaii with a guy. I called the dope man and told him to deliver some more cocaine to my home. I was so high and craving for more. It seems like if I dont have another hit I would go crazy so at that moment that is all I could think about is to get more drug so I can smoke some more. Dope man arrived and drop off on my window and there I am again for another day and another day. I looked at Lena (my dog) Lena! I dont know how to stop could you help me?!!! tears fall from my eyes and suddenly Lena blink one of her eyes at me as if she was answering to my begging comment. It was about 2:15am I took a hit and right after it I hear some one saying Dont smoke anymore! I look around there was nobody there in the room with me but myself and Lena (my dog). I was thinking this must be a good stuff and determined that probably I was too high thats why I hear these voices that are not there. At this time I miss my girlfriend so much I wish she would be here, I feel so lonely, I feel something strange, I feel something really bad is going to happen to me. I started to hear more voices that are not there. I hear my friends voices that has passed away years ago of gang shooting, I hear my relative that passed away long ago and many more that I dont know who they are. I hear a man voice saying Id kept your girlfriend in a secret place, I would not let her go if you dont stop smoking drug I got really scared now that I hear I mean really hearing this mans voice, a voice that is so calm and so soft but yet so scary. Scary because Im by myself with Lena in the room and no one else is around but the voice is talking to me. It is so realistic and after many minutes I came to understand that these voices is really talking to me because even Lena barks and she also ran around the room as if she was trying to stop someone from entering the room. Nam, hows your brother doing?(one of my friend voice) how is that you can hear me talking to you? one voice ask me. I said I dont know then another voice said Nam! You can hear us now because He is about to take you away! I was thinking He? who is He and where is He taking me? These non threatening voices I can hear it coming from outside my window but there is a feeling of one person or should I say one man voice came from somewhere in this room and the feeling that man is nearreally near me, the feeling of sense that he is right in front of me as if he is waiting for me to do something so he can have authority over me. I looked outside the curtain I see couple pairs of eyes look right into me or into my room (like a peeping tom from outside of my window). Evil looking eyes as I remember and behind them there were many people like an audience from afar, those audiences from afar is trying to help me, trying to say something to me, trying to warn me but when it comes to that I cant seem to hear them clear. But there is a girl voice I can hear clearly and this is what she said Nam! Dont smoke anymore if you do you would not be able to go to work tomorrow! I said Okay! How about I smoke for another 30 minutes and Ill stop and go to sleep then I can go to work the next day. The girl voice said No Nam! You dont understand if you do, you wont be able to go to work tomorrow I said Okay! One more hit and Ill stop, it wont hurt The girl voice said Nam! You dont understand one more then you wont be able to go to work tomorrow. Every time the girl voice talked it seems as if she wants to warn me about something but someone is not allowing her to say it. I held a bong pipe in my hand slowly I lift it up to my mouth and light up the lighter and took a hit. While I was inhaling the drugs in my lungs I can hear voices in a peer pressure way, saying this guy have such a long breath can he keep inhaling longer. As I hear it I keep on inhaling this drug from the bong pipe with one breath. As soon as I exhaled the smoke was all over the room. I hear footsteps running to me. I hear a voice saying Nam police is entering the house to arrest you. Nam! Go to the bathroom and brush your teeth and wash your face so that when they enter your room they wont find you I did exactly just that then I hear a voice saying Nam! Go back to your room and get Lena with you so I did. One of many other voice saying in a calm very patient tone, Nam! It is okay now, go back to your room I dont know who is who and who is to help me and who is to lure me into something really bad, as high as I am, I listened and acted on every command from those voices. Now I just got out of the bathroom and back in my bed room. As soon as I close the door I can hear a voice saying Nam! Turn off your light and lay down and I did. Then there is this dark people entering my room.. (At this point I have to skip forward a little because it involves someone elses life and their future decision). A voice saying Nam! Dont listen to him! Nam dont listen to them get up and move around. I try! I try! And I try! But I cant move my body! I cant see a thing! I cant feel anything! It is so dark! I dont know where I am! Where is my room! Where is Lena! I am so scared! Im crying for help!! They told me that I am DEAD! The following event that I experience hereafter I must pray before I continued, please pray with me. My prayer is in the book of Psalm 23 The Lord is my shepherd; I have all that I need. He lets me rest in green meadows; he leads me beside peaceful streams. He renews my strength. He guides me along right paths, bringing honor to his name. Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me. Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me. You prepare a feast for me in the presence of my enemies. You honor me by anointing my head with oil. My cup overflows with blessings. Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me all the days of my life, and I will live in the house of the Lord forever. In Jesus name, Amen. Thank you for praying with me. Please follow God and obey his commands. He is our only hope for eternal life and security. I am now standing in front of many soul as if I was standing on a concert stage with the audience a lot of audience looking at me. Picture yourself stand on the beach alone looking out the shore, instead of ocean water you would replace it with souls, the whole ocean of souls. One of the souls speaks to me Nam! Put your hand together and pray to God and ask Jesus to forgive you, He is the only One who can help you. I said Bbbbut! I am a Buddhist, I only pray to Buddha. One of the souls reply Nam! You dont know what you are saying. Put your hand together and pray to God and ask Jesus for forgiveness! I dont know why but I am glad that I did put my hand together and pray Mr. Jesus I dont know who you are but I believe that only you can save me right now. I have done many wrong in my life, more sins than I could count but I ask you with all my heart please forgive me and give me a chance to life again and I promise that I will not used drugs anymore and I will sin no more. Mr. Jesus please guide me, please forgive me I am scared, please give a chance to life again. I truly pray it with all my heart, I could remember that I shed tears as I was praying this. Then I hear a angry tone saying Why would I forgive you?! Do you remember you stole that cookie and ask not to get caught you wouldnt steal again? Do you remember..Do you remember..Do you remember As The Voice was speaking to me angrily, I saw my whole life from the day that I was born to the day that got me here. It s so funny although The Voice sound so angry but somehow I am not scared but instead I was joyful, I feel as if while The Voice was talking to me I am being cure, I can feel all my sins all my addiction and all my bad habits and all my evilness is flying out of me. I am feeling so happy while I hear This Voice. The kind of happy feeling from the heart it is so hard to explain how happy. I just know that I want to be happy like this forever. If you win a super lottery you are happy but you are happy from the mind not from the heart. That is not the kind of happy that I am talking about. This happy that I am talking about is forever I cant explain it. One day you will feel it if you accept Jesus is your Savior. He is my Savior from that point on. He showed me The Way The Truth and The Life. He saved me from dead and gave me eternal life with him. I am so glad that those voice told me to pray and I am so glad now that I pray I believe and I accept Him in my life. (This story is to be continued!!) Sincerely, DaiNam

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