My life is a sequal to a very sad tragedy. In 1993 Alabama won its last championship. If Alabama had not gone to nationals. I probably would not even exist. I was concieved out of rape that night. 8 months and 2 weeks later I was born. My mom married a guy. He was a nice guy and all, but when they got married he changed. he quickly became a wife beater. Once my mom finally got up the courage to leave him I myself was violent, afraid, and confused. Another year went by and before I was even really saved I was praying for a dad. My mom met this guy who was a friend of my cousins. The man had a crush on my mom years before and he proposed with in a few months. She thinking only of me married him. He was a very good dad at first, but slowly and surely he also began to change. One day my mom was in his office & found child porn. Things started happening that I didn't understand. One night my mom came in & told me they were getting a divorce. I didn't know what to think. That was something I had thought would never happen in my family. The Lord saw that my mom needed comfort and could not take to much more, so through me he comforted her. i remember vividly telling her it would be okay and her coming in and crying in my arms telling me "she loved me that, she was so sorry". My life was pretty much a bunch of hills after that. See he had lied to my mom about the bills, and we almost lost everything because of it. Not to long after the divorce I met a very poisenous venom... porn. I became secretly addicted to porn. that was a addiction i had fought with for years when my mom met a guy. My mom had made a promise to me that she would never mary someone again for me. That she absolutly would love him if she married him. she and this guy did fall in love. he had also just been divorced and had a 14 year old daughter. right before thhey got married, I found some porn on his computer. I never told my mom.it was about that time or a little before that it hit, hurricane katrina. we sat on the couches of his house watching the water rise. we saw turtle swimming tryin to beat the current and live. Noone had slept the night before. we all slept to the sound of savage wind and rain. i went back to sleep on the chouch not sure if i would wake back up. when i woke up the water was to my knees. i looked outside and saw that the turtle had given up and was being beat down by the current. Eventualy the storm was over and we all walked ut onto the deck and watched the sky. there was a magnifacent orange hue that was so beutiful. The next day we found out that the pretty lights was somebodyies home burning down and someone was in it. i almost broke down right there. well we got the house back together and my mom and the guy married. she was happier than I had seen in a long time. Come to find out his daughter was bipolar. When my mom and him got married she started treating my mom like dirt. Soon after he left to Tennessee to do some buissness. Then everything went wrong.  My mom got sick and started having very bad pains. The daughter kept getting meaner and meaner until I didn't recognize her from the time i had met her. when doug came back he asked my mom for a divorce and kicked us out of the house. We ended up at my grandparents house(a livin torture house) my mom they found out had kidney stones and lots of them. she spent three months in the hospital so drugged on morphene she couldn't remember eating a hamburger. The man had tried to force her to sign the papers(divorce) while she was drugged. he also took the liberty of coming and taking her car that he gave to her with his key. when she did get out she was still passing stones. We started going back to my home church that had led me to Christ and where I first heard God and everything like that. i returned and saw the girl who had put the biggest twist in my life. She and i had liked each other for years and i finally got the musccle to ak for her number(with a little help from my best friend) We talked and i noted how i envied her cuz' she didn't have to deal with phsyco grandparents all day long ect. I know many have said I'm to young to love but that isn't true because the only other time i feel like i do when I'm around her is when I'm in the presence of the Lord. Idon't talk that easily with her any more not because I don't have anything to say but because I'm overwhelmed. I madly love her and I pray each day she feels the same about me. Youth revival startedand on the second night my life got a turn around. the thing was on Fatherless children. when they did the alter call i was the first up there. many others soon came but i will never know quite how many because i was in the presance of the Lord and he was healing my wounds. One of the men who had prayed for me I came to call my father and i still do.  you know the main stuff of my life and I'm proud to say that the Lord has set me free from porn, lust , anger, hate, and distrust. Ipray for everyone in my testimony and I want to let you know if you got anything from this i am praying for you too.

            &nb sp;                         &nb sp;   the end...for now

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