just wanted to share this because god wants me to. you know i drank all my life because i could not stand myself. see satan attacked me early with shame so i would not know who i was in christ. see i hated myself i believed that i was no good that i did not belong here. when i drank i could like myself even love myself. i hated joe but when i drank i loved joe!   drinking got worse and worse. i started losing jobs and then i ended up in a hospital bleeding to death from a hole in my stomach that the booze had ate thru my lining. i was in there for 15 days. i was in and out of conciesness and halucinating! i could not use my armrs or legs they were useless. the doctor was not sure why but said it was probably because my brain had swelled from the alcohol. when i was leaving the hospital the doctor looked me right in the eyes and said mr.danowski if you drink again you will die! i think it was five weeks later i was drunk again! i was never gonna stop! then i went to prision for 1 year. i was so mad the night the police came i was in a rage.  i fought with them and they broke one of my ribs, as they cuffed me and took me out of my house years of anger, bitterness, and self-hatred all came out as i turned and spit into the officers face! it was felony aggravated assault on a police officer. my life as i knew it was shattered! i lost everything! my wife, my home, and my job! i guess what i am saying is god broke me to bring me to him i was never gonna stop! he severed my marriage and my relationship with my little buddy (my step-grandson he is 6 we were soooo close!) he brought me to a place where i had absolutly nothing but him!!for me it was a wonderful place to be! see now i have him and i now know its all about him!  its not about me and what i want not what i need but all about him! paul writes in colossians 2:13,14 "you were dead because of your sins and because your sinful nature was not yet cut away. then god made you alive with christ. he forgave all our sins. he cancelled the record that contained the charges againist us. he took it and destroyed it by nailing it to christ's cross!!!!!

reading that how can it possibly be about me anymore!!!           god bless you  the wildman!

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