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Hello, My name is Terri. Some people called me Terrie or Terria ,
It doesn't matter to me when you call me. I am hearing impaird, born again christian, Single, no siblings,
has one dog Jack Russell Terrier and just recently put my cat Mechant to sleep on Oct 10,2007 .
I am self Employed as Dogsitter & housesitter
for christian familes who are away for vacation or trips I have full testmony of my life about my struggles of Depression and
God have given my life back together everyday .It has been two years since I had overcome my depression.
First of all let me introduce myself.
I had a severe hearing loss on which I do not hear any of the spoken sounds of the alphabet .
I also have trouble understanding spoken and written languages.I wears a two hearing aids which helps to hear better.
Please bare with me with my communtions on emails or bulletins and the comments too. . I do my best for the lord's work.
How I become a born again christian. When I was fifteen years old, I was very selfish, stubborn, and childish.
I didn't feel like going to the church. I was enter some of idols ways of fantasy world around me. .
I didn't want to learn and know who is Jesus Christ is . One day I fincally went with my mother to Sunday School,
I had this new teacher who told the story about Jesus Christ who died on the Cross. It hitted me what she said about Hell and Heaven.
I was reading Mattew 10: 28. Hell is pretty scary thought. If I would not believe in Jesus christ. I would be in hell.
I would be end up living in hell., won't come back to the life. .It is Mattew 10: 28 it says. " And fear not them which kill the body,
but are not able to kill the soul: but rather fear him which is able to destroy both soul and body in hell." I read this and Picture
this is not pretty picture at all.I won't consider my life end up in there...
I didn't quite understand she talking about Jesus would take away our sins.
Does he save us from our sins and will takes us to the Heaven. My pastor came and talked with me about Jesus Christ.
I begin realize Jesus is Son of God. It is so amazing what I did learn from them. I begin going to ladies bible studies, Sunday School classes.
and other activities. I prayed and asked God to forgive my sins and asked Jesus come to my heart ..
I became a born again Christian on September 15, 1980 and was baptized at same time. .
We all know Some christians do even feel God has forsaken them, but God does not desert the anxious christian.
Every christian is given a spirit of love. One of the most joyful statements in Scripture is " I have loved you with an everlasting love;
I have drawn you with lovingkindness." (Jer 31:3) If you and I can ponder God's power surely we can lean on his love. "
But God demonstrates his own love for us in this While we were still sinners, Christ died for us" (Rom 5:8)
I am involved on church activities such as Church Historian at Presbytercian church for 12 years now.
I keep records of what going on at our church , took pictures of the activites and doing bulletin board every month .
All my relatives are baptist and other religon . We are only ones is Presbyterian on this generation. Very strange.
I Think God has a purpose for us.
On Feb 14, 1995, I never forget what I heard the news from my former tour guide from bus trips called me that my new
best friend named is Gundi,from Germany died from Alcohol relations. It was an shocking news. We have know each other for two years.
She is not christian. She is likely baptist. she says. I didn't know how sick she was. I didn't how heavy she drank all this time.
Alcohol kills her.Why she have did to die? I was very emotioally saddened at that time in the service. How can I find another friend like her? It
took me three years to find one. I had no friends until I came to classmates .com on 2004. I made few good friends there.
The year of 2005. was suppose to be a moving time . We suppose to move to West Virginia on July .
We never expect to this happening to us,was my father acts so strange with his mental illness. I got real fill with anger, complains,
fights, miserables, and very depressed. I know it is not healthy for me. My mother and I had a hard time dealing with my father's condition
over at court hearings for three months then end up in mental hospital at Raliegh for two months. My mother finds that
My father has a dementia..Do we believe that? She brought him home on Christmas Eve. I was so afraid what he might do something to us.
He haven't. He has been very quiet and lay on the bed all the time until the new year, I was very struggle. "Why me?
"The life is not easy task but God does help us if we can ask him to help us, give us a good advice..
It made me realize what it is important this testmony meant to me. It is important for me understand to have a family again.
Before Augest, I was member of classmates.com, I have lost self esteem overcome losing lost of friends from here.
My anger and depression have been built up so quickly. I realize what worth of lose friend who have been encourage me so much ..
it took me awhile to get over with it. But on Augest 10th, 2005 I got real deep deep depression. I felt like stuck at the hole with the devil.
I went in the kitchen., got the prescription driug doctor gave me . I took two instead one. it made drowness.
I was so scared to take it. I was shake like a leaf. I was looking into Death. . I went sleep all morning.I told my mother about it.
My mother called my pastor to come and talk with me.. I realize now I will be sinless if I did attempt self murder (suicide) .
I wouldn't have life after death. .I told myself " Why me ? " I told God to help me to get rid of devil thing out of my mind. I told the devil "
go away". I told my pastor about my feelings about my parents and didnt want be like my father from last year.
My pastor didn't want me do it.). I told him I didn't want do that neither.. I decide to get some help from psychologist and Christian couselor.
I have to adjust my life together, find a job, go someplace else. and enjoy myself in anywhere. ..
I told God to help me to get rid of devil thing out of my mind.
I told the devil " go away". . I have been on the medication for now. it is for mood swings.
I am doing real well . I have been seeing the couselor for three months until october. Right now ,
I am no longer see the couselors or the medication unless I need them for my mood swings.
On October 4th. I had a misable time when I was very sick with stomach viirus last few days until Thursday.
I told my mother to take me to the hospital. Oh, it scare me a death. My stomach felt nausa! . Why me O lord. I am too sick to go!
I am too weakness.. I did go to the emerency room. The doctor fincally gave me the IV on with special liguld .
I was dehydrated for two days straight. I couldn't eat at all. I was so miseable there. My doctor said it is a stomach virus.
I started feeling lot better later the evening and return home. Next day, I starting eat slowly and drink. I begin walk around a bit.
God has been working out on me. He has been healing me. I was praying to God while I was in the Emerency Room.
I remember this scripture in my head as I did pray. Jeremiah 17:14 Heal me, O LORD, and I shall be healed; save me, and
I shall be saved: for thou art my praise.. So it done! next day.!. I went to my high school reunion following weekend.
It so blessing weekend!. God has been good to me November 14th, I went to my uncle Jim's funeral service.
It is my father's only brother who died from long illness..He is baptist. It brought me memories of what Jesus died on the cross
as I started out I became as christian. but I heard the preacher said." He is not here: for he is risen, as he said. Come,
see the place where the Lord lay And go quickly, and tell his disciples that he is risen from the dead. He is risen!
He is sitteth right hand of God. Praise God. We shalt be free from the sins, will be going to heaven and peace with the lord .
I could see my uncle's body in his casket at the church.I was able to see him before They will bury him.
I could hear the pastor say that He will have no pain, no suffering. He is in peace with the lord. I look at my uncle for last time.
I could see him go to the heaven with the lord right now. It made me smile.I heard my cousins Jasmin and Kelly gave a speech
about their grandfather "Things he like to do " I like the last sentence he always tells the truth. It brought tears out of my eyes.
I had to get tissue out of my jacket. I got emotional, smiles at my cousins. We went down to the graveyard, not far from the church
and their home. I got lump my throat , not try to cry. I was holding on my father's arm.. I know he is in heaven. I hugged everyone
especially his wife and the kids. On December 18, 2004. I just walked out from my job at McDoualds. I had enough working there.
It has been working for sixteen years. I am so thankful of what I did.
It has been two years since I had overcome my depression,
I came back to Myspace .I joined in Myspace in November 7, 2005.
I haven't been on there very much last year. On January. It make me realize what My good friend on Top friend list in myspace
gave me the idea of the book called " How to win over Depression? " by Tim LayHaye..
I got this book, read it , took this test. Oh I am in trouble. I Realize what I did wrong here. I kept reading on and on. It blew me away..
I pray God to help to let me seek your word of the scriptures.and understand. He did. It took several months to finding a right job for me ..
until May. Got the call from friend at church asked for watch their dog while they are away. I took it.
Now I am self employed as Dogsittier for christian families who are away. I go take care of their dog and their house.
God had been working through me everyday.I am so thankful to all the friends here who taught me so many things
I didn't know about God's word or other things . I have so blessed That I grow closer to Jesus as my savior.
My father don't have dementia at all. My father is doing very good . I am so blessed things has been changed this year.
Thanks to the lord that things has work out for the best. I recommend those books I encourage you could read about overcome depression..
" How to Win over depression " by Tim LaHaye
" Spirit-temperament" By Tim LaHaye
Those you want to know about my Hearing Impaired experience. I do American Sign Lauguage. I haven' sign much as I used to. but I have Book called
" Sign of the TIme" By Edgar H . Shroyer.
This is excellent book I have been studied. . God bless everyone!.
If you have any suggestions about books that recommend on Depression or Anger. Let me know. Thanks.
Oh one thing , There has been added on.. There is other books that recommend also
Spiritual Depression, by D. Martyn Lloyd-Jones
Faith Tried and Triumphant, by D. Martyn Lloyd-Jones
Benefiting from Life's Trials, John's audio series on James 1:2-18
Spiritual Depression, by D. Martyn Lloyd-Jones
Faith Tried and Triumphant, by D. Martyn Lloyd-Jones
Benefiting from Life's Trials, John's audio series on James 1:2-18
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