My friends would say my best qualities are, Dependable, honest, stable, intelligent, great at expressing myself, inventive, creative and a great imagination with a wonderful heart
Getting to know me is understanding
that true genuine friendship is paramount to me. I enjoy laughter and
I enjoy peace, knowledge and energy among those I meet. I love music
very much and I enjoy remixing and editing music because that is the
talent that God has given me among others that I have come to know in
my life. So if you ever hear a crazy remix or extreme edit of one of
Gods songs don't ever believe that I would mock or disrespect him in
anyway because I love him too. I just share my vision with how my
music is heard and experienced.
Understanding me is realizing that I am
humble and that I truly care about who enters my life. I am a
sensitive soul and I wish nothing more than to be at peace, share
knowledge and love.
The chapter of my life with God is
among the greatest gifts God can give me. I know he tells me all the
time that he loves me. I know I need him more now than ever before. I
realized that without him I failed all of the time. Yes, I struggle
each day in remaining on the path of salvation. I am attacked every
chance darkness sets out to steal my joy. I call out to God for his
help daily. I don't want to go back to the world where I was lost.
It's really tough and cold when God isn't in your life. I always told
myself that I could go it alone and that I could fix my own problems
but then I found out every single time that with out Jesus I was lost
for certain. No matter what I did to fix my problems I fell on my
face. Every single time. That is surely disappointing and it hurt
because I felt nothing but being a failure in life.
Today I stand with God. A close friend
of mine named “Sam Rock” from Pennsylvania U.S.A made me realize
how easy it was for me to come to God with all my problems. Even
though I thought I had to fix them first before going to him it
wasn't really like that. He would accept me broken, lost, sick, tired
and sad. I too went through so many things in my life and felt severe
depression and that ugly head of anxiety. I too cried and hated life
and I even went as far as committing suicide. Life for me wasn't
worth living at times and God pulled me through. I still suffer at
times from these ailments but God is seeing me through it all. The
thing is I always seem to acknowledge him at my worst times but never
took the time to realize that when good times were there he was
around too. I always turned my back on God because I believed I
wasn't good enough to have a chance of being saved. I was saved
before and failed and then again and failed and then again and
failed. It was this vicious cycle and you know something?
My biggest mistake was looking at man.
Watching what somebody else was doing and then saying to myself how
could this all be God like or a church or anything that makes sense
about being with Jesus when people are doing things backwards or
things that I didn't believe in or even how an organization is within
the church. I surely fell time and time again. I judged and I saw
things so distorted. I also loved the world more than Jesus. I mean
doing whatever I wanted to me was great but it surely brought me pain
in the end.
Darkness has a way of bringing you down
a lot of the time. Satan knows to send his minions to do dirty work
to you every chance they can. I knew this first hand with demonic
forces putting in negative thoughts in my mind to make me see things
that would make me run from God. They would poison me daily so that I
would fall. They won for a long time and I could have died and yes,
probably end up in hell in pure torment and damnation. I am lucky
enough that today I can write that I am saved by my lord and savior
Jesus Christ.
I will admit that I struggle and I
almost fall at times because I feel like Jesus doesn't hear my cries
for help. I know he does and he is there for me. I become frustrated
with how darkness puts forth fear in me and puts forth ugly thought
like “END IT NOW” and things not of God. I always ask Jesus for
help because I know Satan is losing the battle in the end and I know
that Satan is doing everything to take as many people as he possibly
could down with him. It's sad because when you think about it, the
point of it all doesn't make sense sometimes. We live in this world
and it is purely about choice. Sometimes your choice is bent one way
and you have to see the truth and in doing so you need the guidance
of Jesus. You have to believe in something you do not see and using
only faith alone will see you through.
It's a long and hard journey for some
and for others it's great. For me I hope to see that day when I will
have nothing but peace and my place in heaven. I share this with you
the reader because Jesus is real and even when sometimes I get
frustrated and want to run away from him I know in the end that
without him I am truly lost. I got to tell you that the Devil will
fight you to the death!!! I mean the biggest lie ever told was that
he doesn't exist. Satan surely believes in us. He does things daily.
Lie, steal and kill. God always reminds me that isn't his way. He has
told me that he is a just God and he is a loving God and he is fair.
He won't negotiate with you because there is no negotiating with God.
He expects you to just simply love him. Give him the impossible and
you deal with what's possible.
You know? I always said this too
because you know your mind is always asking those questions.
“Why is it that God put us here in
between Him and the Devil? I mean, that's not fair! Doesn't he love
us?”
Well, Gods answer to me was. “Why
would I want to take my creation and like robots make them love me
and that's it? I want all my creations to love me because they choose
to. They either choose love and goodness or they choose evil and no
love.” I struggled with this but soon realized that it all made
sense because how would he truly know if someone wanted to truly be
with him if they didn't really choose him to begin with? I understand
that everything is about choice and that God wants our love and to
have faith in him is to truly love him.
I also thought by performance alone
(Good Works) or just simply believing in him would get me to heaven.
NOT!!! You have to accept Jesus into your heart. You have to believe
he will be there with you and you have to know and confess that he is
lord and savior to be saved. He died on the cross for all of us. I
even analyzed that too. It makes sense because God would never know
our pain if he didn't transform himself into his own creation. He
would never know the pain and sorrow and all that lie forth for us
spiritually and physically if he didn't take on being human. It all
pans out to me and I see things a little clearer because of that.
All my life I have witnessed and
experienced demon attacks from the violent shaking of my bed when I
was a child to shadows in my room when an adult to lies whispered to
my ears and pain, hurt, sorrow and even near death experience brought
on by these dark forces. I always saw my mother being attacked and it
always hurts. Today I still get attacked all of the time. You might
too with friends arguing with you or betrayal or bad life experiences
or anything that you do not favor. You want an answer?
I have to tell you Jesus is the way.
It's never easy and yes, I too suffer the blows Satan deals to me on
a daily basis but Jesus is bigger than this and he says he loves me.
I do not want to go back into the world but into his world. I am
tired of living that old life and with baby steps along the way I
know someday I will see the gates of heaven. I will confess I am
tempted daily and I sometimes want to go back to the world even
knowing all of this but Jesus says he loves me and he will see me
trough this. Faith is all I have. I hope and pray that I don't go
back because that worldly life isn't living it's dying all over
again.
May God bless your soul and always
remember that God is good and that evil will never triumph because
faith and Jesus will pull you through. I appreciate you reading my
testimony, about me section and I hope that you can stick with Jesus
too because it's a real hard life without him. It really is.
Sincerely,
Freddy “The Edit” Rivera
Dear Heavenly Father, Thank You for Your many blessings, and help me to be content with Your daily provision in my life. May we all be content with Your daily provisions. Thank You for Your wonderful gifts of love, joy and peace, which cannot be purchased with any amount of money. I am most grateful. In the name of Jesus, I pray. Amen.
